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  Wanted to get reinstated... Almost ready to give up

  by headisspinning in

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  i'd like to hear from anyone who was disfellowshipped but fully intended to go back as soon as possible and how that worked out or didn't.

  i'd like to hear how soon you went back to meetings, how many letters requesting reinstatement you wrote, how you were treated, and how long it took you to get bitter and jaded.... or in the off chance you had a positive experience, what exactly happened.. really struggling here... thanks!.

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  Pams girl

  The truth will out! Im new spinning, and feel for you. I was never baptised, but was a study for 6 years. I suffer with agoraphobia and severe panic attacks (past 10 years), and that is why I lost my job as a neuro-surgical nurse. JWs knew all this, Ive explained it to them hundreds of times, yet my illness was the reason I finally had the courage to stop contact, because they turned my illness against me! Wouldnt give me a bible for my son unless I started going regularly to meetings, er, HELLO! DO YOU KNOW WHAT AGORAPHOBIA AND ANXIETY IS? HAVE YOU ANY IDEA HOW ITS DESTROYED MY LIFE?...They hadnt heared a word I said. Well, now Im nearly free, my anx and panic is MUCH better, I no longer live in fear of everything, I dont wake up worrying everyday with tales of...do this or that or Jah wont love you, behave like this/do it this way or WE wong love you.

  In the begginning they said "WE love you anyway...!"

  It became "WE love you only IF...." Its conditional love for them. Thats not based on Jesus teaching.

  I wish you and your family the strength to get through this, listen to your heart. It will never let you down. Youve a new exciting life ahead to look forward too, and the freedom is breathtaking...........my thoughts are with you. Take Care, Paula x
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  SOME ENCOURAGEMENT FOR THE NEWBIES AND LURKERS

  by palmtree67 in

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  a quote from "crisis of conscience".

  don't be afraid to read it.. .

  whatever the initial distress - a distress that sometimes follows the demenaing experience of being interogated by men who, in effect strip one of dignity, make the weight of their authority felt, and presume to judge adversely one's standing with god - however torn one may feel inside, afterward there is a distinct feeling of relief, of peace.

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  Pams girl

  Thanks for this thread, its strengthened my resolve. Its so great that you make us newbies so welcome, as they say "first impressions last", and you lot seem fantastic, supportive, and helpful. Thanks from me to you all.x Paula
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  Do worldly people (never a JW) request no blood in case of emergency?

  by Iamallcool in

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  just wondering.

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  Pams girl

  Hiya HHG, funny thing is with agrophobia tho................... cant even get to the shop some days. Hahaha, Im working on it! Hubby says he wants a holiday in Spain soon. I was like MR T..remember him? "I AINT GETTING ON NO PLANE FOOL!" hahah, now, if my bitch gp would give me the odd valium now and again, its a maybe......

  Are you seriuosly going abroad? What a fantastic opportunity for you mate! I wish you all the luck in the world! x
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  Ready for the big showdown!

  by Pams girl in

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  thanks to all who have given me such support this past week, for your kind pms, and all your hints and tips for leaving..or slipping away.

  hubby threw out all my wt and awake literature yesterday (going back to 1983, it was a lot!).

  ive read so much, heared testamonials, done my research, taken on board your help and suggestions.

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  Pams girl

  Funny as Millions! I LOVE GAV AND STAC!!! WHOOP WHOOP!!! Oh Bryn, what a guy (swoon) x
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  Ready for the big showdown!

  by Pams girl in

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  thanks to all who have given me such support this past week, for your kind pms, and all your hints and tips for leaving..or slipping away.

  hubby threw out all my wt and awake literature yesterday (going back to 1983, it was a lot!).

  ive read so much, heared testamonials, done my research, taken on board your help and suggestions.

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  Pams girl

  Heres my plan, I love God, but not the WT. I want to worship God, not the WT. Then they will say that the WT and GB are Jahs mouthpiece.

  But the WT have made numerous, dangerous, and downright scandalous claims that havent come true. They will say its because of new light, yes? Well, new light doesnt extinguish old light does it? I believe God cannot lie. So, are they accusing God of getting it wrong, and therefore make continual adjustments to docturine? If they are Jahs visable organisation, and his mouthpeice, then they are accusing Him of getting it wrong...surely?

  I may be way off course here, but Im too angry to just say.."Oh, Im not coming back and its a personal decision etc..."

  Im confused on here to be honest. I feel like Im being treated like an idiot. I know Im niave, but please remember, these questions are important to me even if they seem silly and pointless to some, these are very real fears Ive been expressing. To be honest, being isolated with agoraphobia and anxiety for 10 years really means Ive been kept out of the wordly loop so to speak, so Im just learning how to deal with it from you guys.

  Im a senior member on a panic attack forum. To be honest, I myself get a bit exasperated at some newbies who post things like, help me! panic...what can I do!....and I think, well, if youve been diagnosed with it, you must have been advised how to cope etc.......what I mean is, to you all its obvious how I should go about it. For me, I guess I wont know until the sisters/elders are in my living room and Im in the kitchen waiting for the kettle to boil. I will just do what I feel is right at the time I guess. If I blab and am acused of being weak willed/apostate etc...fine. If I say Im mentally ill, and not going back for personal reasons....fine. I guess its a case of suck it and see.
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  Witnesses are saying "END IS RIGHT NOW!"

  by free2beme in

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  i have witness friends telling me, that this is the end right now!

  that this globel issue of the nations of egypt, libya and others ... is the sign they looked for.

  now with what is happening in the usa, wisconsin to be exact, more trouble is rising and this is it.

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  Will do HHG, Im ready and waiting, any day now my door is gonna knock.........(ps, threw out all my audio tapes, and every cd and book I had today!)...I put them in recycling, so if they call round the back way, they will see them as its not collected till next Monday! Feel so naughty and its soooo gooood! x
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  Do worldly people (never a JW) request no blood in case of emergency?

  by Iamallcool in

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  just wondering.

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  Pams girl

  Hi, as an ex-neurosurgical nurse, I only ever heared of 1 case where a patient requested no blood, and this was because she was petrified of getting the wrong type, and she was afraid of contacting HIV etc. Its a very rare occurance in my opinion.
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  Ready for the big showdown!

  by Pams girl in

  1. watchtower
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  thanks to all who have given me such support this past week, for your kind pms, and all your hints and tips for leaving..or slipping away.

  hubby threw out all my wt and awake literature yesterday (going back to 1983, it was a lot!).

  ive read so much, heared testamonials, done my research, taken on board your help and suggestions.

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  Thanks Loz! Its good to meet you, Im so relieved I found you all I cant tell you. Another big leap today, went and threw away all the books and audio I had, after getting rid of the WT and Awakes yesterday. Lots more space for nice cook books now.......I will PM you for sure, thanks for the welcome, much appreciated x
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  Witnesses are saying "END IS RIGHT NOW!"

  by free2beme in

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  i have witness friends telling me, that this is the end right now!

  that this globel issue of the nations of egypt, libya and others ... is the sign they looked for.

  now with what is happening in the usa, wisconsin to be exact, more trouble is rising and this is it.

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  Pams girl

  If the end is here, why has a local elder spent £10k on a new kitchen? Kinda waste of his money maybe? And the local KH is getting a new roof and carpets..............mmmm............maybe not quite yet then...
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  Ready for the big showdown!

  by Pams girl in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  thanks to all who have given me such support this past week, for your kind pms, and all your hints and tips for leaving..or slipping away.

  hubby threw out all my wt and awake literature yesterday (going back to 1983, it was a lot!).

  ive read so much, heared testamonials, done my research, taken on board your help and suggestions.

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  Pams girl

  Thanks Palmtree, very much appreciated. Maybe I will try a bit of mind control on them! Hahah, cheers for your advice x